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Wednesday, May 21st, 2014
Date:Wednesday, May 21st, 2014 10:29 PM
Subject:10 year LJ-aversary! (and only almost 5 since I last posted!)
Mood: accomplished

I am emerging from my HARDCORE lurkdom because I could not let the fact that I was signed onto LJ, on my computer (where typing is oh so much faster than on my S3), on the actual 10th anniversary of me signing up for my account pass me by.

Brief summary for those of you who have forgotten me after 4.75 short years, after law school kidnapped me. My name is Rumidha, Rumi for short. If you already know me, it's almost definitely through Buffy the Vampire Slayer, specifically Buffy/Giles. There may be 1 or 2 of you from Grey's Anatomy and CSI. Also from the law school communities. Hello!

The extreme gist of these last few years is that law school, and then the bar exam, ate my brain. They had to be my focus, and they were. Passed the bar exam on the first try, and in a state where the pass rate is less than 50%, that felt pretty fucking awesome. I delayed my return to fandom because I wanted to have all my ducks in a row, job wise, before diving back in. Turns out the legal market is still total shit, and I had to make my own job. After a year and a half of licensure, I started my own practice, and omfg, if I thought I was busy in law school??

But I have been wrestling with the thought of returning to the participation side of fandom for quite some time now. I'd love to, and I know exactly how much fun I have and how lovely everyone is, but I also am very aware of how much of a time drag it can be, and I know I can't afford that till everything is more settled.

So this is probably another long-term goodbye, but it should be shorter than the last one was!

<3, Rumidha

P.S. (Got into the fandom side of MCU just as I started studying for the bar, so this would have been Dec '11. The little bit of fic/pretties I allowed myself helped me stay sane, and my absolute number 1 ship is Steve/Tony. Do you know the novelty of actively shipping one of the popular ships in a big fandom? IT'S AMAZING.)

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, , Wednesday, August 5th, 2009
Date:Wednesday, August 5th, 2009 05:16 PM
Subject:Haven't disappeard, law school is teh evol
Mood: busy

So, basically, law school is hell on earth but totally awesome at the same time, which is why I have disappeared and will probably stay disappeared for a while. I had to delete all my LJ/Fandom links, that's how bad it is! I miss LJ/Fandom dearly, but I do NOT have time for it, so this is the official post saying so instead of having my teeny-tiny flist occasionally wonder "did law school eat her or something?" Bye everyone! See you on the other side! (dunno whether the other side is the semester break or graduation. Hopefully the semester break, but I have a 40 page paper I need to write during that time, so, um, yeah. Pah.)

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, , Saturday, November 22nd, 2008
Date:Saturday, November 22nd, 2008 05:58 PM
Subject:Finals = Impending Doom
Mood: crazy

My first law school final is on Dec 1st. If I think too hard about it, I might vomit. So I study. And study. And study. And rail against the universe for attacking me with gout NOW. Just as I've started walking in the mornings again. And try not to succumb to a blind panic when I realize that my arm pain might be back. I have a new plan for next semester. Be on top of things enough that if something calamitous happens in the last two, three weeks before finals, I'll be fine. That's the new plan. I did a lot better with procrastination than I have in the past. But it wasn't good enough.

And important boy question. How badly shocked will a boy you've never spent any alone time with and not seen outside the classroom be if you ask him to have coffee some time? I don't think I'll ever be able to screw my nerves up enough to do it. But if I can get an idea of how he'd react, then I can go from there. Honestly, my reality-based goal at this point is just to see him outside of class. That's it. I don't even have to get him alone, just get him to come out with our group when we do stuff.

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, , Monday, July 21st, 2008
Date:Monday, July 21st, 2008 03:39 PM
Mood: sore

I have seen three movies this summer, which is super exciting.

I need my wisdom teeth out and dearly miss chewing, which is not exciting in the least.

I HATE EVERYTHING. *whimpers for a while*

The movies though? Indiana Jones 4 was just FUN. Harrison Ford still owns all, even at whatever 64/65 he was when he shot this. Get Smart was hilarious beyond belief, and I would totally go see it again. Steve Carrell is phenomenal, and if it wasn't for the fact that Patrick Dempsey owns my soul, I would totally spend this summer catching up on The Office so that I could watch it Thursday nights, but alas, it is not to be. Mamma Mia rocked my socks. I'm a gigantic ABBA fan as it is, and I loved the original musical when I saw it in San Francisco a few years ago, then adding Pierce Brosnan and Colin Firth to the film version is just icing on the cake. Greece is stunning. The locales in this movie blew me away, and the water alone makes me itch to hop on a plane. Greece has been added to my list of potential honeymoon destinations.

OMG, DR. HORRIBLE!!! Neil Patrick Harris is adorable and brilliant all at the same time. I could see shades of Barney, both pre-awesome and awesome, in Billy, and it was fabulous.

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I managed to kill a fly yesterday by squishing it against my window with a 4x6 index card. It was DISGUSTING. Fly guts. And the crunch was almost worse than the god-awful buzzing noise that flies make normally. Yeagh.

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, , Tuesday, July 8th, 2008
Date:Tuesday, July 8th, 2008 08:04 PM
Subject:Buffy/Giles Icons for Summer of Giles 2008
Mood: artistic

Heavens to Betsy, AT&T in this part of California is APPALLING. My apologies, folks, it's been a hectic day.

I tried something new with these icons, and I'm not sure what I think of them. I like them? Yes, I like them. I certainly spent enough time on them. I tried to kind of tell the story of Buffy and Giles icon-ically, and I think I hit most everything, but then I realized I forgot at least two of their major fights, when Angel comes back and when Giles tells Buffy that they might have to kill Dawn, and then I realized that these two have a LONG history together. So, instead of a complete anthology, these are the highlights of Buffy and Giles:

And these are pictures of Giles that I re-fell in love with while browsing through my collection. As for number 6, we'll just pretend that Giles was actively involved in theater during college or something.

As for the bases, they're either caps from the beegee_icontest, Gabi's wallpapers from the old website, or screencaps I made. I tried to exercise restraint and just go for the specific moments I wanted the caps from instead of watching scenes. Yeah, that didn't happen. This is a brilliant show, they make a fabulous couple, and I need to go watch more now.

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, , Sunday, January 20th, 2008
Date:Sunday, January 20th, 2008 10:08 AM
Subject:Happy Birthday, xdawnfirex!

Happiest of birthdays, ishtaritu! May the day be wonderful, and may the year to come bring wonderful things. Mwah!

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, , Thursday, August 16th, 2007
Date:Thursday, August 16th, 2007 10:12 PM
Subject:Phew! *is exhausted* GJ's been set up, folks!
Mood: annoyed

OH. EM. GEE. Setting up a 2nd journal? Big, fat, headache-inducing, pain in the ass. But it's done. See? See? If I did it correctly, damn thing should look exactly like this here journal. Whose profile page I added actual bio information to. And see the pretty new default icon pic?

I'm copying ishtaritu (who's been my point person on all of this, since damned if I'm going to try and keep track of all the wank. Again with the headache-inducing.) I'll be updating this and that simultaneously until LJ pisses me off to the point that I can't bear the idea of staying here. All my friends are here though. AND THE FIC!! All that lovely, lovely smut. That's being whisked away behind friends locks faster than you can shake a fist at. (Did I just thoroughly mix up my metaphors? Hmm.) But yes. As the friends and smut go, so go I.

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, , Thursday, August 9th, 2007
Date:Thursday, August 9th, 2007 04:05 PM
Subject:YAY xdawnfirex
Mood: ecstatic

Who rocks the house?
ishtaritu rocks the house
And when ishtaritu rocks the house
She rocks it all the way down

Through our collective efforts, Rainne pulled off a B in her summer trig class. YAY HER!! (And I helped! Yay me!) But most importantly,

YAY RAINNE!!!! (I tried to make it look special with sparkles or scrolling, but it yelled at me and wouldn't. Sniff!)

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, , Sunday, July 22nd, 2007
Date:Sunday, July 22nd, 2007 08:51 AM
Subject:My Harry Potter Experience
Mood: contemplative

Well, two years after the last book and this is STILL the only Harry Potter icon I've got.

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, , Friday, July 20th, 2007
Date:Friday, July 20th, 2007 07:23 PM
Subject:Fic for summer_of_giles. Buffy/Giles, PG-13ish?
Mood: pleased

I have discovered that writing is like pulling teeth for me. I discovered this rather late in the game, which means that my actual, full-length story has been scrapped. Instead, I have a dialogue fic that's based on the same idea, but was much easier to write and has me tickled pink. Please let me know if you feel the same!

Also, I am on vacation, and I'm not sure how much internet access I'm going to have. And I'm going to be checking in a little sporadically, because I won't be able to read Book 7 until next Sunday, and I am terrified of being spoiled, so I'm walking into the internet very warily.

Title: 5 times Giles and Buffy reflected on events in their relationship
Author: rumidha
Disclaimer: I own diddly. I own squat. Diddly squat!
Rating: There's only some suggestive dialogue, and no curse words, so a vaguely PG-13ish?
Summary: See the title.

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, , Friday, June 29th, 2007
Date:Friday, June 29th, 2007 11:44 AM
Subject:Buffy/Giles Icons for summer_of_giles 2007
Mood: artistic

This would have been up earlier, but it's been a hectic morning.

Icons whose base image is from something khaoschilde did - 1, 31, 32,
Icons whose base image is something I did, or the original picture - 2, 3, 18, 19, 20, 21, 33, 34, 35, 36
All the others are from something Gabi did. These are all pictures I saved years ago from the buffygiles website.

OH! And about the base picture in 33. The shippiest looking picture from the S5 Promos. Do the PTB hate us, or something? I could not find a large, HQ version of this picture anywhere. I looked on every SMG website I could find, and it wasn't one of the ones I managed to save from The Cheese Stands Alone. Anyone happen to remember anything about this?

So, yes. Take icons as they strike your fancy, just please comment/credit so that I know people like these! And if anyone wants modifications, or has a picture they'd like iconed in this vein, just let me know.

(Trying to put an LJ-cut using pictures with the rich text mode scares me, so here are 'xamples: , , and .

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And yay!

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, , Monday, June 4th, 2007
Date:Monday, June 4th, 2007 03:20 PM
Subject:Stupid Boys!
Mood: disappointed

As you all know, my love life is non-existent, and I'm fine with that. Right now, I'm focusing on my health, family, school, and friends. I'm happy with that. I've also had a crush that won't die on a boy from high school who I saw for the first time since graduation back in January, to the point that I'm half in love with the fantasy I've built up of him. It is he that compels me to LJ today. Can someone please tell me why I'm on the verge of tears over the fact that I found out he has a girlfriend? I mean, my mind knows that there is pretty much no hope of anything ever happening between us, and I thought I was fine with having fun with my fantasies and that's all it was. So why am I this flaily over finding out that he has a girlfriend? I mean, I feel like I need to break out the wine or something. Oooh, I wonder if I can blame this on the concussion. That'd be nice.

Oh, yeah! I have a concussion (which feels like what I imagine a hangover would be) from the accident, the minivan's effectively totaled, and the 84 year old man's insurance representative that we're dealing with? Let's just say she's not the nicest of people. Good LORD.

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, , Monday, April 2nd, 2007
Date:Monday, April 2nd, 2007 08:28 AM
Subject:My laptop charger is gone. Love live my laptop charger.

I left my laptop charger at the house, so I have to get from now (Monday morning, before class) to Thursday afternoon on 3.5 hours of laptop power. It's making me very nervous, but I think it will be an interesting experience. I shall be conserving the power for the academic stuff, so I figured I'd quickly pop over here and let everyone know that "Hey, I'm MIA for a legit. reason this time!"

Pain wise, things seem to be going decently *touch wood*. Turns out a lot of my problems were due to a pretty nasty misalignment, or spinal subluxation, if I'm remember the fancy terminology correctly. The misalignment was compressing a number of important nerves, INCLUDING the ones that lead to my right arm. Started undergoing chiropractic treatment and its been a godsend. It's also been the first time I've had a man's hands on my ass, but that's another story entirely. I yelled like anything during the first treatment and my mom was rather alarmed out in the waiting room, but I walked out with a spring in my step. So yes, I thought I would share that things seem to be improving, albeit veeerrryyy slowly.

I'll have an easier time checking my mail than LJ, so if there's anything interesting happening, either comment to this or send me a mail (livesforabook @ Otherwise, see you on the weekend, folks!

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, , Saturday, March 10th, 2007
Date:Saturday, March 10th, 2007 04:18 PM
Subject:CuteDean-Lorelai Graphics
Mood: artistic

I can't remember how I found deanfest_2007, but find it I did, and I was inspired to finish a Dean/Lorelai manip I'd been experimenting with forever. It didn't turn out as clean/polished as I wanted it to, but I was sick of fiddling with it, so here it is in its original, not-so-glorious glory; an attempt at prettying it up by making it look like an old photo, and an icon. Tah dah?

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, , Monday, March 5th, 2007
Date:Monday, March 5th, 2007 08:25 PM
Subject:What's this? AN UPDATE?! *revives flist after everybody faints from shock*
Mood: nauseated

(The icon has no relevant bearing on the contents of this post. It just makes me giggle every time I use it. And 'Indian sex goddess' is something a friend from HS would refer to me as in anticipation of all the loving she was certain would come my way. 2.5 years later and zilch, but it's okay).

Well, it's been a month and a half since I've updated, and in that time, I've managed to make not 1, not 2, but THREE new friends! *waves to elizabuffy, mirrorandsmoke, and shadowlongknife*. I've also made 6 new icons, approximately 4 of which I really like. I also have a new health crisis. Yay! As far as the old health crisis goes, the nerve problem in the arm (look here for lots and lots of details that are current as of early June) has finally become manageable *touches wood just in case*. I quit the 3 anti-depressants that were making my life absolute hell, thanks to the neverending dizziness and exhaustion, and am using a TENS unit and physical therapy exercises to keep the arm relatively painfree as long as I'm not using it. 

The new health crisis? It feels like someone is clawing a piece out of my right side, and my life has kind of pretty much come to a screeching halt since I can't walk for more than a few minutes; I can't hold my stomach in; I can't laugh, cough, sneeze, yawn, or jar it in any way; and, oh yeah, I can't sit through class. That one's been fun. I've had to drop two classes this quarter, and I'll have to take a modified load next quarter. So far it hasn't been h. pylori, gallstones, a kidney infection, a kidney stone, or an ovarian cyst. And my pain's been getting worse. Life? Sucks. On a more vain note ,I was supposed to have lost 20 pounds by now, and one boy on this campus was supposed to have found me attractive. And this isn't a self-esteem issue. I'm not the only one who thinks I'm pretty, and I know I am quite a catch. I just need a boy who thinks the same thing.

Oh, Heroes starts in five minutes! Please don't let Mohinder die tonight, please! OH! And who dictated the majority of this entry with her new, kick-ass voice recognition software? ME! This thing is so cool, but it means that My roommate hears me talking pretty much nonstop. Oops?

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, , Saturday, January 27th, 2007
Date:Saturday, January 27th, 2007 03:46 PM
Subject:Gakked from xdawnfirex

Leave me a comment and...

1. I'll respond with something random about you.
2. I'll challenge you to try something.
3. I'll pick a color that I associate with you.
4. I'll tell you something I like about you.
5. I'll tell you my first/clearest memory of you.
6. I'll tell you what animal you remind me of.
7. I'll ask you something I've always wanted to ask you.
8. If I do this for you, you must post this in your journal.

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, , Tuesday, January 23rd, 2007
Date:Tuesday, January 23rd, 2007 10:33 AM
Subject:M&M people, anyone?
Mood: artistic

So, this is what I've been doing instead of econ HW. I was reminded of my desire to come play with the M&M character creator by malnpudl's creations, and well, play I did. And, may I introduce the dreamiest M&M you've ever seen, and the M&M you have to save to save the world?

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, , Saturday, January 20th, 2007
Date:Saturday, January 20th, 2007 11:26 AM
Subject:Happy Birthday, xdawnfirex!

Happy Birthday, hon! And I use the icon with love. =)

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, , Wednesday, November 1st, 2006
Date:Wednesday, November 1st, 2006 12:09 AM
Subject:FIC - All of Paradise is Mine (PG, 1/1, Meredith/Derek)
Mood: creative

Title - All of Paradise is Mine
Author - rumidha
Rating - PG
Pairing - Meredith/Derek
Word Count - 1,929
Spoilers - Post 3.04, but discounts 3.05 and any other spoilers.
Summary - It bothered Meredith that she was still taken by surprise when Derek managed to find a brand new way of breaking her heart.
A/N - Tah dah, my first Grey’s Anatomy fic, and my second fic ever! It is unbetaed and I consider myself to have a decent grasp of grammar (watch, I’ll have been using English incorrectly for the last 20 years), but if anything leaps out at anyone, please let me know.
Disclaimer - I own diddly. I own squat. Diddly squat! 

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, , Thursday, October 12th, 2006
Date:Thursday, October 12th, 2006 01:26 PM
Subject:The most effective diet EVER
Mood: exhausted

That's right ladies, I have discovered the secret to the most effective diet ever. South Beach, Atkins, the Zone, they can all go jump off a cliff. The real way to keep off the calories?

Use a nasal spray to treat your allergies. The tase of the resulting post-nasal drip will make your mouth taste so wretched for so long that the idea of eating anything even remotely sweet (except fruit!!!) is horrifying. I haven't had chocolate in 2 months. Or ice cream. Or donuts. And it's not that I gorge myself on these! I just like the occasional indulgence, and now I'm denied even that for the sake of my sinuses. Bah.

So, I've made it through almost three weeks of being on my own at this point. I think I'm dealing with the separation issues all right, as long as I don't think about them for very long. And I go home every weekend. I'm not sure just how sad and pathetic this is, so if it's very, please don't tell me?

This would all probably be easier if physically, I wasn't feeling so shitty. My arm HURTS, and classes are still difficult, and the meds I'm taking for my arm leave me so frakkin' exhausted that it's ridiculous. I'm dozing through class half the time, although that's not actually anything new . . .

I'm working on developing a social life and am checking out all the interesting looking clubs. And that's all well and good, but - I WANT A BOY!! It feels like I'm undergoing some sort of forced celibacy. And I can't even knit my damn sweater!!!

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